i told myself, once.
not to fall too deep.
but
it turns out

i can't.

i can't help
i can't understand
i think i have fallen
so deep
i can't explain.
so happy
and sad
at the same time.
i don't wanna miss anything
but i know
i will
someday.
i don't wanna expect too much
cause i know
it is
dangerous.
i don't wanna lose you
i'm afraid
i will.
stay.
please.
i'm begging.
i'm sorry.

i can't help
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falling in love
with you.

say you love me
with no doubt
no hesitation;
nothing.
say you need me
love
and anything;
could be true.
say, my dear
i murmured
say it loud;
he said.

and anything..
could be true.

Oct,22nd. 2016.

jangan
rangkai bunga
setelah ku bilang
ingin setangkai

jangan
rajut pelangi
setelah ku katakan
ingin melihat hujan

jangan
lakukan itu
apapun
yang membuatku
bahagia berlebihan

kita tak tahu kapan
hujan akan berhenti
hingga kau masih sempat
merajut pelangi

kita tak tahu kapan
mereka akan mati
berapa waktu tersisa
untuk kau rangkai kembali

9, 2016.

come on...
i have butter
and you could fly
we can make a butterfly

come on...
i love rain
and you've got bow
why don't we draw a rainbow?

come on...
i see fire
while you work
let's put some firework

do you know that
we don't miss the person
we miss the memories
i want to be your memory
and everyone's memory
that remind them
about me
that i was
a fairy
i don't belong to anybody

and i came
from the moon
with the stars

i'm trying not to miss you
but maybe what they say are right
i miss the memory with you
good or bad
i'm sorry
for being afraid
of everything
for overthinking
over things
for not caring
....
for everything
i wish i could
but i couldn't.

if every things...
are true.